Being His!

So I have been a little slow in updating my blog. I really have no excuse except that I become completely overwhelmed with the amount of things to talk about that I don’t know where to start. Since my 8 day retreat, God has been continually calling me out more and more deeply, pretty much in every area of my life. I want to look at Him and say “you are my number 1, I will follow you anywhere”, but usually I end up putting stipulations and suggestions attached to whatever and where ever He is calling me. It frustrates me, yet I don’t know how to stop doing it. Please pray for me.

Living in Community is crazy. I have learned to love in a whole new way, and also to see so many of my own faults and ways I fail to love. It is so much harder than I thought it would be, yet so good all at the same time. I can say that I truly love everyone in this community. And I can only pray that I learn to love them better each day. Praise God!

The time here is flying by and the question I get asked most is “what are you going to do next year?”. Oh…if I only knew! ☺ I have learned this being here though…it is less about the title or what you do verse about who you are in Christ. So I am not really that worried. I could really do anything, the more important question that is burning my heart is “who am I going to be?”. God is calling me to be His “beloved” and so often I settle for less than that. After all it is so much easier to be less than that instead of really trying to live into the title of “beloved”. Hmmm maybe in my next 30 years of life I will figure it out.

So I don’t know what my job will be next year, I don’t know where I will be next year, I don’t know what my vocation is going to be, I don’t know really what God is calling me to do….but I do know that I am His, and there is incredible peace in that.